The Gray Areas
Being in the middle of two major parts of your life is such a crazy trip. You just ended something in life that is monumental and you are about to move on to another monumental piece of life. Well here’s the thing about the middles… the middles are the gray areas of life. Yeah yeah yeah, some person is out there telling you that life is only black and white and that the gray areas don’t exist. Well guess what, they clearly don’t remember the last time they went through a middle period of their life. Middles are gray, and messy, and confusing as hell. If you don’t have a solid rock in your life like a super in your face supportive friend or like a boyfriend or girlfriend… you get really lost and caught up in everything that is happening around you. It’s so weird and consuming but you can’t stop it, you don’t know how. No one will deny someone who is giving them positive attention and appears to care. When you’re in a gray area, you know that you will soon be letting go and that you refuse to let yourself get attached. During the kind words and long conversations you find yourself lost, so lost from everything you know that you want and you know that you need. The middles of life, the gray areas; they will take you for a spin and introduce you to some great people. You have to remember, it is just the middle and you have a whole new chapter waiting for you in a week, a month, or maybe even six months. You can choose to let your gray area blend into your white or into your black… but if you’re going to do that, make sure you’re making the absolute best decision for yourself. Sometimes the gray is meant to be the gray and everything and everyone is supposed to stay in there when the next chapter presents itself. Sometimes it’s safer that way, and it gives you the opportunity to fully submerge yourself into this new area of either black or white. Know what you want for yourself and for your next chapter. I know you’re lost in a cloud of confusion within the gray area, and it’s okay. Just try not to lose your vision of what you want for yourself because… dang that’s important. Taking care of yourself is important, it’s not selfish. You HAVE to take care of yourself and your emotions because feelings are dangerous and all kinds of confusing. Take care of yourself, this middle will pass… it’ll make you more aware by the time you reach your next middle.
Please take care.
"why are you awake at three in the morning" asks the person who is also awake at three in the morning